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 Yeah so....I won't be talking about the shitshow here. But one good thing that's happened in the past 10 days is I participated in a music jam session. It was fun. It also made me realize that I still have some trauma and stuckness and stubbornness around playing music. I know it's from childhood and kind of being forced to do it.

Side note--JFC, why are immigrant parents always putting their kids in dance and art and music classes but then getting mad when they want to do that shit as a career? LOL

Anyway, I hope that more jam sessions make me hate it less, cause I'm gonna need some fun hobbies during the dystopia besides going into debt.

I also LOATHE talking about gear with anyone. I don't care if I'm hitting a tin can, and I don't want you to explain it to me. I just want to play.

Been focusing on synths lately, but at home jam seshes I do love playing bass when I can figure some stuff out and it'd be cool to play a drum pad set but we just don't have the room for it. I've never played a set.

Need to get some #BrainVomit out.

I think the lack of Vitamin D from staying indoors is getting to me. I told myself I was going to walk very gingerly into ’25, and certainly the world hasn’t held back. Like, check on your damn goth and subculture friends this week, because yeah. You’ve seen the stories.


While a lot of pop culture has been deeply meaningful to me, I don’t think any movies, books or authors ever sunk as deeply into my cells as music really did. So luckily for me personally, to have a lot of creatives’ valor publicly revoked and replaced with heinousness is less difficult on me than when it’s musicians for some reason. But oddly I also feel like more musicians get a pass to “misbehave” to a degree because of the whole rockstar thing. Sigh. Wasn’t it Gen X artists who said “Unalive yr idols?” Just found out that Thurston Moore is actually Generation Jones, which I knew, but also apparently he might be not-great as a human as well. Anyway, Gen X was right about so many things, but hey I was never one who advocated the ignoring. Unalive your TV, unalive yr idols.


I got on the waitlist for Friendster reboot today and I’m curious about that P-fed site but it appears to be having similar scaling up problems to what Hive had, so I’ve decided to hold off. I’m also a bit annoyed but unsurprised that my local Buy Nothing deleted my kinda unrelated post in the group asking whether any of us were planning on organizing/grouping on another platform. Since I know at least one person leaving the group due to *gestures* pewp and my usage on FB will be drastically reduced. Would love to kaplooey my whole profile. I saw someone talking about getting back on Dreamwidth, and I do like the built-in people connections there LJ style, but I’m also feeling baggage about my old entries there. There might be a cute entry here about me and R’s first date, hehe.


I skipped going to a mic when I really should’ve due to the blahs but at least some verbiage seems to want to come out of me one way or another today. And I got a decent morning page done. Been trying to prod myself back into my old routines but it’s been a struggle. Put my accountant deposit down today so at least that will motivate me to deal with ’24 taxes in the next few weeks.
That gum you like is going to come back in style. I think I’m going to start telling this to everyone in the dystopia as a hopeful phrase. We know *they* need to fix their hearts or die, but why tell that to your average subculture/marginalized person? “That gum you like is going to come back in style” at least gives us something to look forward to. It’s empty but caring and not too sensitively personal.


It'd be great to have a catch-all socials site not gabillionaire-owned where you could tab out microblogging, macroblogging, static photo posts and video. Thoughts stolen from Eric S. And yes my biggest boomer complaint is short form video and the pressure to create it. Haha.
No further commentary on the fires at the time. Evac orders are being lifted and stuff seems to be somewhat calming down. Gentle rain would be nice.


Had Lynch ever actually "come out" as autistic? I've seen a few people comment on this but wasn't sure whether he'd said anything. I could totally see the character of Director Gordon in Twin Peaks as a comment on a type of autistic trait that exists for some.
Anyway, that gum you like is going to come back in style.

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